priorities, change and balance.Posted: 03/10/2013
With this year slipping away so quickly, Christmas just around the corner and my girls growing up way too fast for my liking it sometimes feels as though the days turn into weeks, which turn into months and time is running away from me. All the while I’m frantically trying to be the best Mother I can be, the best wife, the best person I can be, to keep a clean and tidy house, to be a good friend and daughter, to try and blog and sew and cook healthy meals for a meat-loving husband, picky 3 year old and hungry-early weaning baby all on a tight budget.
Sometimes it all runs smoothly, sometimes we manage to get to child care early and all flows perfectly, but lately after some terribly sad news about a visual disability that Francesca may have it has really made me put things in perspective. Something needs to give in order for me to do my most important job to the best of my ability.
When after tests and investigations through hospital appointments regarding Francesca’s silent reflux revealed she has a cataract (phpv) it left me feeling saddened to the core. We have a long road ahead of us in finding the best way to deal with this problem and we are playing the waiting game at the moment.
So for now I’m trying to live more ‘simply’. I need to lower my own expectations of myself in order to nurture my family and be more present. It has been such sad news yet such a good reminder of what is really important. All of a sudden the days seem far from relentless and I’m appreciating my beautiful girls all the more. I’m researching all I can about her condition to find out every possible avenue and to learn as much as I can. More time snuggled up reading books, more time chatting, more times baking together, more time to just ‘be’ a Mum. It’s what I need to do at the moment.
So I’m going to simplify things here a little, I’ll still be here and I’ll be posting from instagram on to my facebook page most days but I will take a little step back for now, I hope you’ll understand and still stick around – I’ll be back at my usual pace before not too long hopefully.